12/9/2015

Today has felt excessively long. I would be looking forward to a nice relaxing weekend, but unfortunately I already agreed to hang out with D on Friday. This isn't altogether bad per say, but it does mean that I'll probably have no time to rest until... whenever the hell I can rest. I still have a ton to do, and everyone wants me to hang out with them too, and I would appreciate it except I don't think people realize that they're just causing me more work and trouble. Like I say "gosh I'm so stressed and busy right now," and their response is "we should hang out." I'm sure they mean well, but hanging out really is not my idea of a day off.

I feel like I've been more irritated lately and I'm not sure if it's a side affect of my medication. I'm just so grouchy all the time though. A stranger will look at me and my reaction in my head is "fuck off bitch." Not even if they look mean or anything. It doesn't even matter who it is, if someone so much as looks at me wrong I just want to... I'm not even sure... growl at them? Perhaps the meds are giving me extra energy and instead of converting it to nervous energy, it's converting it to RAGE!!!! But seriously, I'm worried that I'll piss off my friends by being a bitch because I FEEL ANGER AT THE SLIGHTEST THING AND IT'S NUTS I JUST WANNA THROW SHIT.

It is however entirely possible that this recent grouchyness is caused by lack of sleep, food, and coping skills. It is almost finals after all.

In other news, I am currently waiting for the bus. I don't want to go out there and have to be in the cold for too long so I'm sort of stalling. Plus I'm already cold and I don't fancy being even more cold.

Speaking of things that PISS ME THE HELL OFF, something happened to my watch and now it beeps at me on the hour every hour. This by itself is annoying, but I worry that it will happen during a test and I'll get in awful trouble and they'll fail me and throw out my test and everything will be terrible. Now I know this kind of thinking is a bit ridiculous, but hey that's me. I'm ridiculous.

Anyways, I better get to the bus stop. I bid you adieu.